wow u guys are smart!
deff i dont want any potatos! but see i hate everything... like idk wat i hate until someone says it...
bananas, potatos and.... red meat.
goal is to gain muscle instead of fat.... thats healthy! right? so ill eat w/e they want me too b/c ill purge it all when i get home (yeah i know my body has already taken the cals but i dont even want the physical food in me!) then work out with yoga and with bf at gym everyday! bike everywhere once winter is over and no movies or stupid sitting dares, ACTIVE!!!!! i got another meeting tomorrow, idk wat its about but i keep getting closer and closer to the day they put me in there.... i havent told any of my friend i'm even leaving the school... i keep making plans with them and thinking 'will i eve be here' but really i doubt anyone is gonna notice im not there, no one ever notices when i dont show. i just want to graduate this year, thats all i care about...
3 months with KD <3
love him to bits! he is a stick and eats nothing all day but coffee and smokes! when im with him he doesnt bug me to eat or anything im never hungry with him b/c u dont even think about food! i cant wait till i move in with him!
and thank u kissa but i know he loves the skinny girls and really.. i swear he isnt THAT much bigger then me! maybe ill post a pick of us both when i get one that shows us from head to toe or something..... i just wanna be small enough that he can lift me with one arm, and i want him to love having me on top of him..... i want himto run his fingers over the outlines of my bones and tell me im beautiful and tell me im perfect!
- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!