To whom it may concern....

dont be stupid! who the hell WANTS an eating disorder??? I went through 3 months of day treatment at the hospital and i was there for the least amount of time i could. I am now fighting every day to live! dont be stupid, love ur body before its too late!


- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

day 6:

ok so its been 6 days and i am still doing my workout. down to 113 lb and still going
13 pounds to go and 24 days left........ (btw that means i lost the .8 pounds i had before)
my family has been really on me, they are making little comments here and there and just getting on my nerves.  i had lunch with the family today and my grandma was like 'she wont gain any weight if she eats like that' and i wanted to yell 'sorry if i wont gain as much weight as my fat ass sister by eating ALL of that food!' i had a bowl of soup! thats sooooooooooooooooo much more then i needed to eat.
and today my mom decided to have a family dinner as well so i had to eat, i had like a spoon full of macaroni salad and some fake meat.
im so upset that im being watched but at the same time they are making me full terrible for eating.  if i do eat something ill pick something easy to throw up right, well my mom will always make a comment on how its not the healthier choice, but the healthier choice is gonna taste and feel horrible coming back up.  its just annoying,

uch ill be posting a bit less soon b/c my schedule seems to be getting even more hectic!

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