holidays :(

Ok so i made it through the dinner last night by telling everyone i ate more then i did, being super sneaky! which wasn't easy at all!!!!!

i hate being watched its making everything so much harder! and today i had to eat! this is terrible! i had to go to a lunch (no choice!) and they fed me! like wouldn't leave me alone, watched me take every bite!  i ate approximately 1,000 cal!!!!! worst part is even though i came home right after, i'm being watched here too so i cant even throw up!!!
i don't know what i'm gonna do for the dinner i have in an hour!!!
i am sitting at the kids table (oh what joy) so i think i can get away with sneaking my food into the kitchen and throwing it out.

once tonight is over then the rest of the month there arent anymore worries! just make it through today and ill be home free!!!
i got 8.5 hours of work tomorrow so that will burn about 600 cal

i need to find a form of exercise that will burn about 3,000 cal that i can do everyday........... got any suggestions??????

i hate this i'm still waiting for some support but ill wait forever if i have to!