FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!

Today I failed, hard! I ate sooooo much!!!! Probably like well over 1,500 cal! OMFG!!!!
That is THREE days worth of calories!!! I’m now gonna have to fast all weekend.  Friday – Sunday night, no food or anything but water.  After school I work then I’m gonna go to bed probably, then work out all day Saturday if possible then all day Sunday too if possible!  I did have plans with friends but this is more important! I NEED to lose this weight! no wait I’m supposed to say that I ‘want’ to not that I ‘have’ to :P.  So ridiculous.  I can’t even weight myself!  I get my pay check tomorrow, 50$ goes to my special friend ;) and then I still need to save up 420$..... My pay check might be about 100$.... TOPS!   Man I’m fucked. I don’t know what I’m gonna do.... I need to lose 15 pounds by the end of the month. That is my goal, how hard could it be??? I’ll start dance and when I’m not working i'll be working out. No more drinking, no getting high (just makes u want food), just smoking and lines.  No food. Food does not control me, it doesn’t own me. I own it, I decide what to eat, when to eat and if I even want to eat.  It has no power over me! And when I’m thin i'll be able to walk into any room and be noticed as the most beautiful girl in the room. Guy won’t be able to ignore me then.