i dont know what it is but since i started the ABC diet (2 days ago) i've actually been under my daily allowance! yesterday i was allowed 500 cals but i only ate 230 (most of that was coffee) and walked around the mall for 4 hours so i burned in total all day like 1,000 cals with all the other exercise i did :P
i swear this site is g-d sent! no more having to memorize what number i'm at (i can memorize the number of each food but i suck and remembering wat number im at today vs. the number from the day before and all the other numbers in my head!) plus u can track ur exercise and it calculates it all for u! and organizes it all into suck pretty charts and graphs! (i love charts and graphs and being organized with information!)
seriously check out this site! http://www.livestrong.com/myplate
i am feeling a lot less hungry since i had sex with chef, but that was also the day i started my new dosage of my happy pills... idk which one is making me happy :S
i swear i could fall in love with chef, like legit love.... im getting older and everyone in my family gets married pretty young.... who knows but im trying to be good.
i broke it with mr. funny guy, 100% we are through! no more communication!
i told trainer guy that he could have his 300$ or our friendship, he chose our friendship but then started yelling at me and treating me like shit b/c of wat happened and so im gonna call him today and tell him that its his last choice, money or me? and if he picks me that he has to treat me with respect! i dont deserve his rudeness!!
i weighed myself to day and im at 108.0!!!! on the dot eh? wat a pretty number :)
i have decided im giving up coke, i gotta, im gonna stay home today and research as much as possible but ill also tell my therapist... maybe... i dont want her telling my parents b/c they will actually murder me!
i should probably take my ADD pills before i post b/c i never have a nice order to my thoughts.... well too late now! i've already started :P
oh btw i gots a new follower today :) HEY YOU!!!!! :D!!!!!
lols, ok so today is 300 cals and i bet at least half of that will be coffee..... wish me luck not on my calorie goal... but on quitting coke... i really have no clue wat im doing with my life anymore........ but i do know i want to be pure, pure from drugs, alcohol and the toxic poison we are fed everyday!
- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!