To whom it may concern....

dont be stupid! who the hell WANTS an eating disorder??? I went through 3 months of day treatment at the hospital and i was there for the least amount of time i could. I am now fighting every day to live! dont be stupid, love ur body before its too late!


- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Halloween goal!

OK so Halloween is in what like 2 weeks? i went out last night with my cousin and bought myself the most form fitting outfit i could find. its totally me because its an army uniform and i love the military! (army chick for life babe!) but the thing is, i look DISGUSTING in it my legs bulge out, my tummy sticks out, and my ass looks a mile long. its perfect! its the perfect nmotivation i need to kick my ass into high gear! i got 3 halloween parties im supposed to go to and i gotta dress up for school, if im not down to 100 pounds and looking good in the dress then im not going ANYWHERE for halloween. i got a date tonight with that guy who is helping me work out(the one who is super supportive of me losing weight). im pretty sure he is gonna be even more supportive once he learns that i am denying myself a boyfriend until i am at 110. and with my goals its not that i 'hit' that number, it only counts as being done once i can STAY at that number and i can say that is my STEADY weight. plus the no sex thing should get his ass in high gear as well ;P LOLS!

i've been cleaning my room today, spent 2 hours on it so far... still not even clean. got all my laundry done and put away and threw out A LOT of garbage! (one full garbage bag)
it's weird, i cant stand dirt on a plate or like a spot on anything, or a hair anywhere (i actually cant STAND hair unless its liek on ur body but like little hairs make me wanna GAG!), yet i love to live in actual filth in my room...... weird.

1 comment:

Kat said...

Haha you'd get the most motivated personal trainer EVER if you told him you two could only have sex once you reached 105!!
Good luck!