To whom it may concern....

dont be stupid! who the hell WANTS an eating disorder??? I went through 3 months of day treatment at the hospital and i was there for the least amount of time i could. I am now fighting every day to live! dont be stupid, love ur body before its too late!


- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

ok so maybe i'm a drama queen :P

im sorry! i MIGHT have over reacted about no one reading my blog :P this morning i woke up to read some new posts and i find i got 6 followers and a BUNCH of amazing comments!!! you guys are amazing and have been inspiring me for a while and seeing u guys on my blog, i dont know it just made me realize that im not as alone as i thought. :')

i got a long day today with a 4 hour program with friends. i have to go but really all we go is sit around and eat and talk, im gonna walk there(might end up being late though..) so that is about an hour and a half to two hour walk (three if i get lost :P) ill say im sick or something, i really dont feel like purging today, bleh.

yesterday i did good, munched on no calorie stuff all day jsut to keep my parents happy, but i went out with trainer guy and we went bowling and then to a movie. would have been ok b/c he doesnt eat after 7 either, but he bought me drinks.... and i got HAMMERED!!!! lols i LOVE to drink but the empty calories make me sicker then the alochol :(

had 2 beers and 5 shots.. thats 70 cals per shot and the beers were those 60 cal things (taste terrible..)

OMG i just cant thank everyone enough though! i couldnt be happier right now with the comments and everything!

so now i get to reply to them right? do i just say it here? i guess, thats wat i see other people do.... OK!

@kat: yeah i told him and he is taking me to the gym everyday now! :P  i think he is more inspired then me ;)

@EvaPuedeVolar: ill go through ur old blogs tonight and find out as much as i can, thank u.  and ya i am worried about becoming obsessed but i have a rule that i can ONLY weight myself in the morning or before and after a binge/purge. hopefully ill be able to resist knowing.

@Almost.Skinny: im gonna try mt hardest b/c i really dont think i could handle that....

@Mich: im really glad i made u smile with my comment, with urs u made my day! :D

i guess that is it! wow that felt cool, ya i know im uber lame :P you know even know the half of it ;)

Me- weight this morning = 111.4 which means a fast today!


PerfectOxymoron said...

its ok doll, I have 22 and you, starving artist, and mich are my only commenters. And that picture looks so good, man i wish my stomach was flat like that, My whole family carries their fat on the belly so if i gain even a little bit it shows a lot :( how tall are you?

Almost.Skinny said...

I suspected there was a hint of drama to you :P
Your stomach is amazing! I'm so jealous!
I'm glad you didn't quit- We're all here for you xxx
p.s. you can reply however you want, in your comments, in your next post or if you want to make sure they see it in the comments in their most recent post. Your call :)