To whom it may concern....

dont be stupid! who the hell WANTS an eating disorder??? I went through 3 months of day treatment at the hospital and i was there for the least amount of time i could. I am now fighting every day to live! dont be stupid, love ur body before its too late!

QUICK NEWS!!!:

- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

i think this is a good thing...?

ok so i should be beating myself up about how on the convention i ate (A LOT) and was not able to purge because at it turns out check out was at like 10 am and we didnt leave till like 6pm, stupid i know

but i weighed myself monday morning, expecting like 115 or higher and hating myself because i only have 4 more days till halloween.... BUT A MIRACLE HAPPENED!! and i was at 111.6lb!

no real change which means that i can eat ''normal'' at stay at 111lb which means that is my LEGIT weight now!

so i can only go down right? like that is a good thing at least :S

i am going to the gym everyday this week.

went on monday, but today i slept all day until work. just got home now

i didnt eat anything but a sandwhich and some salmon (total cals aprox. 250)

feeling beyond sick and tired and irritated. seems like everyone here is in the worst mood possible and everything i say gets twisted around and forced back down my throat.  i dont know what i'm doing wrong but i wish i could just sleep until summer comes again.........

got a new phone and best part about it is i can lock certain parts..... secret thinspo pics? I THINK SO!!! :P
plus it has an app for keeping track of ur diet! lols!!!! random but cool so im using it :P

im gonna spend all tomorrow and read everyones blogs, im really behind! skipping school again because i took too make lax, and actually cant stay away from the washroom for too long :( gross sorry!

2 comments:

Almost.Skinny said...

Congrats on the loss! :)
Hope you feel better soon xxx

Starving Artist said...

Grats on your weight but careful with the lax ;)
lol stay strong sweetie :)