ok so i should be beating myself up about how on the convention i ate (A LOT) and was not able to purge because at it turns out check out was at like 10 am and we didnt leave till like 6pm, stupid i know
but i weighed myself monday morning, expecting like 115 or higher and hating myself because i only have 4 more days till halloween.... BUT A MIRACLE HAPPENED!! and i was at 111.6lb!
no real change which means that i can eat ''normal'' at stay at 111lb which means that is my LEGIT weight now!
so i can only go down right? like that is a good thing at least :S
i am going to the gym everyday this week.
went on monday, but today i slept all day until work. just got home now
i didnt eat anything but a sandwhich and some salmon (total cals aprox. 250)
feeling beyond sick and tired and irritated. seems like everyone here is in the worst mood possible and everything i say gets twisted around and forced back down my throat. i dont know what i'm doing wrong but i wish i could just sleep until summer comes again.........
got a new phone and best part about it is i can lock certain parts..... secret thinspo pics? I THINK SO!!! :P
plus it has an app for keeping track of ur diet! lols!!!! random but cool so im using it :P
im gonna spend all tomorrow and read everyones blogs, im really behind! skipping school again because i took too make lax, and actually cant stay away from the washroom for too long :( gross sorry!
- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!