sadly because i didnt get to watch the food being made i had to look up the average calorie counts.
today i was doing great with no calories all day (just apples, water, diet coke and pickels -either negative calorie food or no calorie drink) but i ended up eating like 20 meatballs that my stepmom made because once again they were freaking on me! but no, they couldnt do this earlier in the day so at least id be able to exercise or purge, NOPE they decided to force me to do eat RIGHT before bed, ass holes..... whatever. tomorrow im gonna start my first legit liquid fast, usually ill end up doing one just because i didnt eat anything but never on purpose. ill wake up and drink 1L of water before i even leave the house. i dont really care if i get really bloated from all the water tomorrow because i'll just piss it out before i have to see my boyfriend (ya thats right, im starting to see that guy who is being so supportive of me losing weight, he is helping me from binging and he is gonna get me out at the gym more often, how sweet is he right????).
k it's late and im EXHAUSTED! im off to try to sleep and hopefully i wont be so sore tomorrow :P
(AND hopefully ill have a comment or two or SOMETHING because im considering stopping my blog because i jsut feel more alone then before....)