To whom it may concern....

dont be stupid! who the hell WANTS an eating disorder??? I went through 3 months of day treatment at the hospital and i was there for the least amount of time i could. I am now fighting every day to live! dont be stupid, love ur body before its too late!

QUICK NEWS!!!:

- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

im gonna regret this in the morning....

BLEH i actually feel the most nauseous.... might purge, still got time to before its too late...............
NO! i said i wouldn't today, this is my fault and i have to deal with it!

walked for 2 hours to get to the program today, did good there but then came home and started the homework that was due lat week and realized i got a ton of work for the organization i still haven't done and that i got a math test this week.... i got so over whelmed that i ate... half a thing of icing, a vegan chili sandwich, a boritto, and some meat loaf......

i got 500 more words on my english story, i gotta make a booklet of information by friday (like 20-30 pages) and i got work tuesday and wednesday..... tomorrow got a movie then dance.....

k so if i can get my homework done tonight then tomorrow ill bike for the 3 hours i have between school and the movie then i got dance that night then ill burn off all these cals and ill fast tomorrow b/c i wont even have time to eat or be home!

then on tuesday work from they library on my booklet because u cant eat there then after work sleep.  same with wednesday.

thursday ill see mr. funny guy (aka this guy im seeing but not really seeing because he doesnt wanna be official so im seeing trainer man on the side)

hopefully ill survive till friday, if not then bye :P jk!
 and because of almost skinny im jstu gonna reply to people on their most recent blog posts because i really want people to see them!!!! :D
THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR BEING THERE FOR ME!!!!!!!!
i will be 100 soon enough ;)

2 comments:

Happiness is possible said...

BTW i did purge and re-weighed myself, im at 111.8 right now. im still gonna be exercising my butt off tomorrow

Claire said...

Yes you will! :) time flys!
I'm glad you found my comment useful! It took me a while to work out the best way to do it, but if there's something I think more people would be interested in I'll still pop it in a post- you know? Do what feels right for the situation is what I'm trying to say I guess haha.
Good Luck with your homework- keep up the great work! xxx