To whom it may concern....

dont be stupid! who the hell WANTS an eating disorder??? I went through 3 months of day treatment at the hospital and i was there for the least amount of time i could. I am now fighting every day to live! dont be stupid, love ur body before its too late!

QUICK NEWS!!!:

- me and KD are still together, over 7 months and we are going really good
- im out of treatment and trying my best to give myself a future!
- this blog is now 100% about recovery and if u ever want to say anything or ask anything have no fear! u will never be yelled at for ur thoughts!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

investing into my future

ok so i dont spend money on ANYTHING that i dont have to, and if i have to ill get my parents to pay me back by convincing them that it's really for them. and all the stuff i do get i steal, and no i dont need anyone telling me its wrong i know its wrong and i feel terrible for it but i cant afford anything. every penny i make has to go straight into savings or to drugs. BUT today i spend like 50$ on my own personal scale! the house one has been broken for a bit now and whne it was ok i was onnly allowed to weight myself once a week (and at the end of the day). now i can actually keep up with my weight loss and keep myself motivated too.

just weighed myself now (its 6pm so i got weight on me from like water and all the broccoli ive eaten today - super yummmy!) and im 112! down 2 pounds since last time and ive binged a lot sine then too!

im 2 pounds closer to my goal!

3 comments:

EvaPuedeVolar said...

Hey Happiness,

Congratulations on your new scale! I've been thinking about buying one for myself too. Just get worried about being too obsessed with the scale. Scales can make me crazy.

I don't really have the perfect answer for you about how to fast. It's all about finding the motivations and distractions that work for you. I will probably do a post soonish about the methods that work for me. I also have some old posts about fasting that you might want to read.

Good luck if you try it! Fasting has really been great for me.
<3 Eva

Claire said...

Congrats on the loss! All the best with the scales- try not to weigh yourself too often, I tend to fall into that trap and get obsessive.
Stay strong! xxx

Mich said...

Woohoo, new scale, and down 2 lbs!!

Thanks for your comment on my blog! You made me smile. :D
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